telling me what I need to know

Something I noticed is when I'm lacking to do something, then it seems there will be a lot of lessons all close together having something to do with what I'm lacking.

In the beginning of January, after the car accident, I was having problems with a fellow member. They were taking what happened, skewing it to something much worse and spreading it to other people. I got really mad and decided to go off on them via text message. I didn't really feel better afterward. I insisted to myself that I was justified in what I had done. Then a lot of the lessons at church started having something to do with forgiveness. Loving everyone, even those that are hard to love. I recognized that I needed to make things right with the member. When I thought about doing that, I would be reminded of why I had gotten mad and then I followed that and stayed mad. Thinking no, my anger and frustration is justified.. she was wrong and I'm right, etc. Then on Sunday, January 29th, I had suddenly got the feeling that I needed to make things right. I was going to walk over to her, but there was others with her and I didn't want others around. After church, I had stepped into ward council momentarily for a blessing. Then afterward, I was heading off to choir when the woman was coming down the hallway. I felt, this is my chance. There wasn't anyone else around and I stopped her and apologized. She accepted it and things were fixed. I felt such a weight being lifted off me. Later on that day, I had a meeting with the Bishop and he offered me to be set apart as a ward missionary. I have the feeling that one linked in with the other.

Recently I haven't been too good at reading the scriptures. I was really good about it when I was working and the effects felt great. But since I lost my job, I have kinda stopped reading as often. I don't quite know why.. I just haven't been on it as much. Well, it seems a lot of the lessons at church seem to focus on reading the scriptures and the benefits of it and the consequences of not. More than usual. It didn't really hit me until last night at outreach and we were teaching a lesson. Lehi's dream was brought up, broken down and it was drawn out. How holding on to the iron rod is reading the scriptures. If you let go of the iron rod, you get led off into the darkness. I don't want that to happen.. I don't want to revert. It would be nice to feel as close to the Spirit and stuff as I had felt when I was reading everyday and stuff. I'm willing to bet that if I get back to reading and make a point of it like I used to, that things in my life would improve.

I'm thankful that we are shown what we need to improve on. The benefits of following. The consequences of  not. I'm thankful for repentance and the atonement. For their love and that They don't want us to fall away, so we're shown what we need to do. Then its up to us to follow through.

Reaching out to those in need

On Monday, February 6th, I was at Safeway to get cookies because it was my turn to bring snacks to WHE. I got out of my car and a young man approached me. He said his name was Brandon. He turned 20 a few days ago. He was just released out of Providence hospital with an ear infection. He doesn't have a place to live or a job. He had been staying in a room with a friend, but the "friend" took his stuff and bolted. All this had happened within the last few days. I asked him how I can help him. He told me if I could, if he could have a little money towards staying at a motel for the night. I could tell he was being honest. I had him follow me into Safeway. I asked him how much a motel is. I asked him if he has a religious affiliation and he doesn't. So I took it as a missionary opportunity. Told him a little about the church. Gave him the name, address, and when service begins. He told me he's happy to be a part of any church. Gave him some money for a couple nights at a motel and food, and said a prayer for him. He told me that I'm the nicest person he's come across and he gave me a hug, then we parted ways. I'd like to think that's what He would do if He was in the same situation. 


Unfortunately, I didn't see him at church. I hope he's doing alright and that things turn around for him.

Thinking back on it, I realized I've changed a lot. If the same happened a year ago, I would have refused to help him  , would have rushed into the store hoping for him to be gone by the time I left, and wouldn't have given him a second thought. I wouldn't have seen him as a young man needing help, I would have seen him as a nuisance. I'm so glad that I'm not like that anymore.

February 5th

Sunday, February 5th was a great day! I was set apart as a ward missionary for my home ward - Mukilteo. I am so thankful for the opportunity! I want to make the most of what I've been given and hope that I'm able to help lots of people :-D

I also got to bring a good friend of mine to the singles ward with me. He previously was against pretty much all of it.. I think I may have pushed too hard when I first joined the church. I had given up with him. There is an inkling of hope now there that I have for him. Getting people to church is an important first step.

Its been a while

There's been so much going on!

The hard part is I haven't been able to type it up. I got hurt at school and haven't really had use of my right hand /wrist, I'm right handed. Its feeling a little better at the moment, so I'm gonna post what's been up.

If I have any regular readers, thank you for your patience